Mind the gap…..

Tonight I watched ‘Mind over marathon’, about 10 people who have mental health issues preparing to run the London Marathon. 

I found it heart warming, emotional, inspiring as it shows how we can overcome things in life by feeling worthy, loved and how important it is to talk about these issues.


Struggle and stress are a part of life, for some more than others. Listening to William talk about the shock of the loss of his mother, still, nearly 20 years on, was truly touching. Rich, poor, old or young mental illness doesn’t discriminate.

The value of speaking to a family member, friend, professional, whoever it is, is irrelevant-it’s the talking that’s important. Listening too, if someone talks to you. 


I have struggled on a few occasions with feelings of despair, lack of self worth and it is easy to spiral downwards. Most recently I realised that I was on that path again and with fantastic support from my doctor, family and friends I am climbing up the ladder rather than slithering down the snake. No doubt a throw of the dice can curtail that climb, but I know what to look out for, and perhaps I should take a leaf out of my Grandma’s book and just throw the board in the air and start again!


7 out if the 10 completed the marathon, their utter fatigue and joy tangible in equal measure: all felt they could take something to build on, and will be friends for life.


Truly remarkable people, I was momentarily tempted to run next year, but only fleetingly!


Cheers and well done! 

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Reliance

Four weeks into 2017 and it has flown by. 

I’ve been busy with work, and socially. Learnt how to make a box, made cards, caught up with dear friends, had Jay’s dad stay for a couple nights.

I’ve also singed my  hair, been to the cinema and booked a holiday. 

I have also been adapting how I work, being more disciplined in what I expect from myself and others.

I have realised that I need to rely on myself wholly,  and not  rely on others, quite often they have their own demons to battle!

I am taking charge of my life and feeling the benefits already. 

I can’t wait for February!

Positives…

Almost two weeks into 2017, and no ofsted this year. Unfortunately so many people seem to have this nasty bug going around and it has meant visits have had to be cancelled, one in particular to see Bella!

 But rather than be too disappointed, I have taken the time freed up to get other things sorted, one namely being our trip to Australia. As it’s our coral and Andrew and Lis’s wood anniversaries Great Barrier Reef and palm trees fulfill the presents! 

I love starting the process, tweaking the programme, finding places to stay, preferably high end or quirky. 

The Whitsundays look amazing and for us all to be together will be awesome. 

Seeing pictures of white beaches bathed by turquoise water, with tropical foliage and brilliant sunshine is the antithesis of our weather right now! 

I intend to keep looking for positives in what happens rather than be dragged down by the negatives! 

2016!

It has been a wonderful year full of surprises with lots of sport to enjoy, but tinged with great sadness too with the loss of a very dear friend and a work colleague. 

I have written about the majority of the highs throughout the year and there have been moments of reflection too.


The last few weeks have found me climbing out from a very dark place, and with the love and support of family and friends I feel strong enough to clamber over the edge and look forward to 2017 and all that the new year may bring.

I have been cross with myself for letting my mental health suffer and allowing things to get so bad. On reflection I have realised that there has to be balance in life  you can’t be all things to all people. 

Having lost loved ones has made me more aware of my mortality, how some people unduly suffer, and face up to it with serenity. I have wondered whether this is a late mid life crisis: irrational I know, as I have a wonderful family, a wide circle of good friends, a home, a job and the benefits that culminate from all of the above. But that has not stopped the feelings of anxiety, the fatigue and the utter hopelessness. 

But I am lucky and I have improved over the last few weeks and the feelings, whilst not completely gone, have sufficiently retreated so that I enjoyed an awesome family Christmas.

As we see in the New Year later this evening I don’t want to make any unrealistic resolutions, that if unfulfilled, will only disappoint and dishearten me.

So I will face each day as it comes, enjoy the moments that take my breath away and be more aware of my mental wellbeing and that of those around me. 

I have a trip to Australia to arrange/organise for the latter part of the year and lots of delightful treats to look forward to. My inspiring parents will celebrate their 💎 wedding anniversary in September, and that is no mean feat!


May the hopes and dreams of all those I love and cherish come to fruition and 2017 provide more fun, laughter and love! 

Cheers! 

Anxiety…..

Anxiety is a feeling of unease, such as worry or fear, that can be mild or severe. Everyone has feelings of anxiety at some point in their life – for example, you may feel worried and anxious about sitting an exam, or having a medical test or job interview.


Sometimes it can overwhelm you and cause panic attacks. 


There can be a variety of causes and symptoms and all are well documented. 


There is help out there and time is needed to find triggers, to investigate all available options to rebalance and find what works for you.


Life is for living and we all need, on occasion, support and assistance in whatever form works for you. It may never leave you, but it can subside the feelings that can overwhelm. 


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