Thank you

Twists and turns a plenty this week, trying to balance the budget. It’s been stressful and after months of sleeping well, these last few weeks have provided sleep deprivation.

One of the ways to try to balance the budget is not to replace staff who have left: never an easy decision.

Even harder is to tell people, but with brave conversations and being open to suggestions this can be sensitively done.

Communication is key, and I have been pleasantly surprised to receive grateful thanks on three occasions this week!

This has buoyed me, lifting spirits at a time when needed.

I’m paid to do my job, but moments like this can turn around challenges and make you stronger, feel valued and value those around you.

Showing humanity, treating people with respect, being honest doesn’t make bad news less difficult, but it can offer care and understanding.

As spring brings new growth we can all look to the warmer weather ( apart from the arrival of the mini beast from the east 😱), brighter things to come and a fresh perspective.



This week has been a strange one, lots of excitement and opportunity and not much time to get things done.

Early mornings and late nights with a foray into the unknown. A night at home with Kevin spending time with his mum, an opportunity for reflection.

This week I’ve been told I’m scary at work, and also intimidating: not really adjectives I particularly care for. I asked my kids if this is the case and it transpires that I have a ‘look’ that can wither and give off an aura of confidence that can appear intimidating.

This has staggered me as I am, underneath all that front, a very unconfident person, a people pleaser and very uncomfortable in certain social situations.

I know my job very well and always strive to be the best I can be, I can be very black and white about certain things, but always take into account the grey areas wherever I can. I also use humour to divert attention.

From these comments this week I have taken on board two things:

1. Very few people really know me at work ( their loss?)

2. I will try to avoid the ‘look’ and smile more!

I did some meditation this week at work and really enjoyed that clearing of the mind, so will definitely be doing more of that.

I’m not sure that I want to change how I am perceived at work, as perhaps keeping the two different me’s apart is a good thing!

We will see, I will try a charm offensive, failing that, buy lots of animal print clothing and be ‘scary’ spice! 😘

And back to work

Today I arrived at my desk at 7:15. My desk was remarkably uncluttered, so that was a positive.

Emails,signing and seeing colleagues proved a bit of a curate’s egg.

Yesterday was not good as I felt lethargic and off kilter. I have been anxious about returning to work and that is how it was manifesting itself.

There are only 13 working days left for this year and with a renewed positivity, I’m sure I can reach that milestone!

I will have the memories of last month to sustain me and also to remind me what working affords me to do.

There have already been colleagues at my door, but that is for next week, and I have had to offer comfort where needed, and that won’t stop🤔🤗

Two weeks in

Well that's two weeks of the Academic year gone

Time just goes so quickly. The start is always frenetic, but this year with the sixth form building project 5 weeks overdue, and possibly another 5 week delay, it's even more so.
Balls in the air trying to ensure all is in place, whilst preparing for a HR audit, a GDPR audit and the ICE visit.

Satisfyingly, things are taking shape, and I feel a real sense of pride. I have had such great support from a Governor, who has been with me every step of the way: we had a shared vision and it has been a delight!

Today provided another boost to my mood with a visit to a brand designer. It is such a fillip to meet people so energised, so full of ideas, a passion for change and to feel 'yes, that hits the nail on the head'!

I walked back to work from the meeting, full of hope, it was a lovely sunny morning, and a dear colleague, celebrating her birthday, had left a cupcake on my desk


We have student art work on the walls and this is being updated and I particularly like one which is in the style of Katherine Jebb. So wonderful to enjoy their talents and achievements.

All in all a great start and long may the positivity remain!

Another year rolls by

Another Academic year ends tomorrow, with more goodbyes with the prospect of hellos in September. Changes to roles and new students about to embark on their next destination of the journey of lifelong learning.

It’s been a year full of highs and lows and on Monday I return to a student free school with a list as long as my arm of things to do.

Fingers crossed the new sixth form facilities will be complete and ready for the students. Our students have had the very best education with committed, outstanding teaching, despite being housed in a corridor and a former students area. This new flagship facility will inspire and energise them further! 

I for one, can’t wait, but there is still a fair way to go. 

Do something that scares you

I recently applied for a job and from 17 applicants, I was one of seven shortlisted. 

Interview details were shared and whilst daunted, I was ready to accept the challenge. 

As interview day drew close, I was tempted to withdraw, but they say do something that scares you, and it did. 

To have to go to a different place, meet different people, be open, engaging, professional and mindful that you are promoting what you can offer, do and be in a competitive scenario.

Tasks, exercises, group discussion, socialising, presentation and final interview.

Down to the last two…. in the process the realisation that I still had more to give, plans to bring to fruition and student success to celebrate.

I’ve been scared enough for 2017.

No one was appointed, but the experience has not been in vain! 🤗🤗💕😉